"Goddam it, you'll never get the Purple Heart hiding in a foxhole! Follow me!" Captain Henry P. Jim Crowe - 13th January 1943 - (Guadalcanal)

With all that zest , ironically im here to ramble out complains about my woes , setbacks and the many failures that i had to go through before i got here.Where i am now isn't exactly where the rainbows and butterflies are.At least , theres a pinch of achievement in me.

on the second thought, zap that.

My random thoughts now are caused by sleepless nights and a Fever.My friends will probably
call it subutex fever ( not as if we know what it does to your body). All i know is that i am shivering.I cant sleep , and my companion is sleeping knowing (thinking) that i am sound asleep.
Sound.yes.I wonder where that term came from.My idea of falling sound asleep NOW is falling asleep with me making so much noise with my nose and throat.
(and yes, someone has a nose)

Well at least i i dont have to sleep to have dreams.no?
(here comes my presidential speech)
I have a dream.
3 years from now , i will graduate with honors in Economics and Business Management.
I will pursue my goal and serve the nation as a Prison Warden .
My motto will be :If you cant prevent, at least rehabilitate.
I will be taking care of my parents and will be a fully independant adult.
I will live each day without worrying about my next pay cheque or how many unpaid leave i took.
Each year will end with a vacation far far away.
That dream, will be my life.
3 years from now.

However for now,I will have to slog it out work it work it.
Lessons have yet to commence and im already getting the jitters.
I am honestly scared, petrified, worried.
What if i dont pull through to the end?
Im waiting for a dream, the start of my LIFE.
what if i am meant to just wait for life to start.
I am spending my life waiting for life to start?

So i guess this is where i slot on the relevance of the quote i inserted.
Im not going to get anyway by just being scared.Get out of my comfort zone dammit
It doesnt matter if there are bullets bombs and grenades coming my way.
Just follow the dream.

"with the unbounded determination of our people - we will gain the inevitable triumph - so help us God."President F.D. Roosevelt - 8th December 1941


so help me god.