My Blogging frequency has been cut down to 6 times a year?

well at least im not the kind who 'blogs' everyday with unsubstantial "i love you , you love me" entries. So you can be sure that my entries are never 'empty'.

SO ..just a few things to clear out of my mind.
Presence, or better known as 'attendance' is really subjective.
If i cant be where you want me to be, its NEVER because i dont want to
(this is general , not personally 'dedicated' to anyone)
Its because of sacrifices that i have to make, be it because i have my own responsibilities to attend to or because im not there to give place to someone else.
(and that someone else better show some gratitude for god's sake)
note: i dont really like to use god's name in vain but seriously, for GOD's SAKE!

Lately , ive been sensing alot of ingratitude, not because i feed on gratitude but its only fair, humane and not to mention pro-karma for an individual to be grateful.
Lets face it, who doesnt appreciate being appreciated?

Its human nature to take each other for granted.I guess it boils down to "do unto others what you want others to do unto you" or simply "love thy neighbour"

If i have to be there just to appease others, i might just confuse myself. Am i being selfish?or sacrificial?or both? either way, it seems to me, for NOW that 'most good deed goes unnoticed'
i rather be Square than be There.Figuratively speaking(pun unintended)

"guilty feet ain't got no rythm"-george michael, Careless whisper


REST.
i finally get to rest! although it means i still have to study, i feel so rested.
I have not blogged for such a long time!
I am still busy, Still OVER-packing my schedule..not a day wasted without me having to something.
Too busy to even exercise! so lately, i have been making an effort to either swim or jog 3 times a week.

i think i have lost all interest to blog , so im gonna end this entry abruptly, here.


Its been quite awhile since i last updated this blog and it almost seems dead.
Here is an attempt to revive it!

Nothing much to say since theres no major hoop-la going on in my life.
Unless you include the daily battle i go through at work and the fact that i'm
trying to defeat the spells of laziness every other day.

two more years to go!
phew.or so i hope.Not very confident about this but i guess its ok.Its all worth the blood sweat and tears.

Few things ive learned so far:
1.dont expect others to have the same amount of commitment as you,more or less.
2.when you fall, pick yourself up(well that ive learnt over and over again)
3.the wheels on the bus go round and round, which is why the MRT is faster.
4.not everyone appreciates humour.
5.money makes the world go wrong.

Ive quit trying to argue with idiots who patronises the outlets.
Ive quit bothering.
Ive quit smoking( for 1 week hahha)
Ive quit showing anger.
Ive quit fighting THE MAN
Ive quit choosing fight over flight.

ive quit trying to end my entries nicely so im gonna do it,
abruptly.


" i turn my head to the east
i don't see nobody by my side,
i turn my head to the west
still nobody by my side
so i turn my head the north
swallow the pill they called pride
the old me is dead and gone,
the old me will be alright"

I can pretty much get the premonition that im going downhill soon.
With all the inevitable stress and the unnecessary stress and to top it all off, the icing to the cake, impending exams.

I'll be lucky to get out of this alive.
if i don't, please note what i want for my royal funeral.
Nothing much,just a poem each .I know i wont be able to read it, but at least my dad could get a feel of what i had become .How i turned out to be .you know?

"thats hot"- paris hilton


Nothing blasphemous, just for knowledge

=)

ever wonder whats so good about Friday that they have to name this particular one "Good Friday?"

thanks to google.






Of the numerous Christian holy days on the liturgical calendar,

Good Friday is perhaps the most solemn and profound memorial. The dates of Good Friday, which vary by calendar year, occur between March 20th and April 23rd. Good Friday commemorates the crucifixion of Jesus and falls on the last Friday before Easter. It is the pinnacle of Holy Week, and Christians observe this day with great humility and reverence.



History of Good Friday

As early as the first century, the Church set aside every Friday as a special day of prayer and fasting. It was not until the fourth century, however, that the Church began observing the Friday before Easter as the day associated with the crucifixion of Christ. First called Holy or Great Friday by the Greek Church, the name "Good Friday" was adopted by the Roman Church around the sixth or seventh century. Good Friday OriginsThere are two possible origins for the name "Good Friday".

The first may have come from the Gallican Church in Gaul (modern-day France and Germany). The name "Gute Freitag" is Germanic in origin and literally means "good" or "holy" Friday. The second possibility is a variation on the name "God's Friday," where the word "good" was used to replace the word "God," which was often viewed as too holy for commoners to speak.



Good Friday Traditions

Good Friday rituals and traditions are distinct from those of all other Church observances and add to Good Friday's considerable significance.
The entire ceremony is somber, with priests and deacons dressing in black vestments.
The pulpit and the altar are bare, and no candles are lit. The purpose behind the solemn presentation is to create an awareness of grief over the sacrifice of God's only begotten Son.

Good Friday Church rituals
starts anytime between midnight and 3 a.m., priests and other clerics begin to recite specific prayers. At the morning ceremony, the priest or church official recites lessons from the scriptures. Afterwards, there is a succession of prayers asking for God's mercy and forgiveness on all mankind. At the noon hour comes the Adoration of the Cross, where a representation of the True Cross is unveiled and the clergy and laity pay homage to the sacrifice of Christ. In the Jerusalem Church, a remnant of the True Cross itself is presented for the ceremony.




"I can't remember when it was good
moments of happiness elude
maybe I just misunderstood
all of the love we left behind
watching the flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find

so I'll love whatever you become
and forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun
I think our lives have just begun
and I feel my world crumbling
feel my life crumbling
feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away

falling away with you

staying awake to chase a dream
tasting the air you're breathing in
I know I won't forget a thing
promise to hold you close and pray
watching the fantasies decay
nothing will ever stay the same
all of the love we threw away
all of the hopes we cherished fade
making the same mistakes again
making the same mistakes again

And I feel my world crumbling
feel my life crumbling
feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away
falling away with you
all of the love we've left
behind watching the flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find

memories I will never find"---- MUSE-Falling away with you

Its been awhile since i feel appreciated,
with you, i feel undefeated.
how youve changed my bad habits, is unfathomable.
for me to say ' thank you' isnt enough.

cosss....my baby has got angel eyes =)
and its brighter than sunshine.
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Bright lights, caffeine, endless scribbling of ink and charcoal...
im exhausted...
lines, graphs, paragraphs, grids, calculations
im exhausted...
music, visuals, paper, books, files
im exhausted...
for the umptieth time, i . am . exhausted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh god give me strength....i dont know how much more i can take
all i know is, there is a lot more for me to go through

' god will make a way when there seems to be no way,
he works in ways we cannot see,
he will make a way for me.
he will be my guide , hold me close into his sight.
god will make a way, he will make a way"

For those who ve been through methodist's education, a very popular hit amongst students during exam period?haha..as i always say' to each his own',Farissa and I love this song,
we have our own faith tho dont worry, it wont falter ...

keep on swimming nurul.